Let the Lightning Crash on Me July 10, 2009

 

 

 

“I remembered black skies, the lightning all around me
I remembered each flash as time began to blur
Like a startling sign that fate had finally found me
And your voice was all I heard that I get what I deserve”

-New Divide, Linkin Park

(^ a must listen to song)

I write to you on this day. The kind of day where the skys are dark, the wind shakes the trees, rain starts to fall one drop at a time then suddenly a million drops pierce the earth in one blow. The heavens ache with anger shooting strikes of lightning that sound crashes of thunder that even the deafest human can hear. But this day isn’t screaming in agony and is not begging for mercy, because its a symbol of serenity. A day of peace. In some way I feel comfort knowing that being a human even though it may seem as we are on top of the world and nothing can defeat us, we are very small and there are other things bigger than us. We are vunerable because we are only humans, and in a way listening to the world being shaken outside of my shelter that I call home it brings me comfort of knowing that even though that storm can kill me, I’m protected. Now for some they wouldn’t even know what I’m trying to describe and in ways I don’t even know, but I wanted to share how being so vunerable on this day brings me comfort. So if you haven’t already noticed there is a storm outside of my house now thats bringing hell to the earth (at least thats what it seems), and I love it. I love seeing the flashes after the sky has made my house so dark that it might as well been night, and hearing the crashes of thunder across the clouds. Sad to say I can’t enjoy that as I want to. The reason is I am babysitting my sister who hates thunderstorms so you can imagine that I have to turn on every light in the house and turn up her music or her movie that keep her destracted. But I guess thats what being a big sister is, is taking care of the younger one even if it means that you miss out on something amazing. I just wish that one day I can be alone in the comfort of my home and turn down all the lights, and listen to what nature has to say, cause if you really think about it us as humans nature is all we really have on this sacred earth that can bring us back to comfort.

 

Anyways I hope you have enjoyed this little blog of mine, because the content reflects on something that I truely enjoy. I might find some inspiration to write again today, but as I realized no one is reading my blogs yet. But I’ll keep writing, I promise

Have a beautiful day,

Love ccrabbit93 <3

Time goes by fast!!! July 9, 2009

Have you ever realized how fast time can go by if you’re not really paying attention to the world around you? How everything that was once there just disappear right before your eyes because you’ve taken it for granted? Well I kinda feel the same way about the past year that has flown by for me. I basically ditched this place and lost the few readers that read my hopeless blogs, and I feel like I disappointed some people. I have disappointed myself, cause I forgot how great it feels to write, especially on here. Time goes by fast, and boy do I know it because looking at my last blog I had written it was in April of 2008, and hopefully you all know (lol) we are in july of 2009. Its crazy! It felt like yesterday when I had just graduated from 8th grade and was starting my first year as a freshman in highschool. Now looking back the time has blown right past me and I’m now a sophmore. I guess I should have listened to my parents and other adults when they said that in highschool you’re a freshman one moment and graduating the next. Ugh, I wish it wouldn’t go so fast because I love being a careless teenager and not having to worry about a thing except for getting pulled over for a traffic violation or getting fired from your first job. Oh well, my job now and to all teenagers my age is to soak it in while we still can before its gone forever.

Anyways excuse my useless chatter, which if you read my blogs often you know that all these blogs always contain useless chatter. But I’m back and I hope to interest you all in some blogs that reflect on my life and how I’m dealing with being the crazy, dorky, and sometimes just plain dumb teenager that I am :)

I hope to write again very very very very very (too many very’s!) soon ,

Love <3 ccrabbit93

Long time no blog.. April 5, 2008

April 5th, 2008

Alright so it has been a long time since I’ve done a blog, and I’ve been needing to do some writing. So I thought well what a great time to do a blog. But oh my goodness it has been a while. Like 2 or 3 months? Too long! Okay so this may be long because its a whole conclusion of the past few months that I haven’t written.

Last time I wrote a blog was on January 31st. Now that it is April 5th I have a lot of ground to cover. So lets see February then. The only thing I really remember in February was Valentines day. Like I said in my past blog was that I still really liked Steven right? Well yeah, so Valentines day was sorta a hard day for me, one being Valentines day being the one holiday that I absolutely despise and that it was our anniversary, ( Or would have been our 2nd month anniversary.) It was pretty much a disappointing day because of all the days I thought if we were to get back together any time soon it would have been then. It would have been perfect. He was still single and he was already looking for a new girlfriend. (Maybe the word”new” was too much of a specific word that flipped me out of that category. ) Anyways, I was trying not to break down in the school hallways as I watch all the couples together. It made me sick to the stomach so I had to train myself not to look and just focus on the next class that I was going to. But I got through the day with a little help from my friends. Anna who is my best friend and we were having some drama then, made up our friendship again and gave me a few gifts, which made me feel a lot better. I had to apologize though that I didn’t get anything for my friends but they understood that I was “anti-valentine’s day” ( I called it..lol). Another thing that helped was that other than Anna no body else got me anything, and even though it would be disappointed to some, i was happy about it. I didn’t want anything that could remember of this dreadful holiday. Not only this year but a few years ago too. Believe it or not in sixth grade on Valentine’s day my ex ex boyfriend asked me out. Now this was a guy that I’d been going out with on and off for two years. And now remembering two relationships that didn’t end well for me and them having the same anniversery date was hard. But going back and remembering Valentine’s day ‘08 is kinda peaceful for me now, because that day I realized that I was fully over my “ex, ex” and that helped me realize that even though I wasn’t over Steven yet that I would eventually be.

So thats pretty much it for February. Let’s see March. Ok well I remember the first day of March by heart. Because..Well remember what I said I wanted to go to really bad? Yeah the Silverstein Concert. Well I got to go to that! It was my first concert and it was amazing! If you haven’t heard of them you need to listen to their music. They are a scremo/punk sort of band, but they’re better than some that I’ve heard. Well ok, that day I got up, got ready and Steven and his dad picked me up. We then went to the mall to go get some T-shirts and a CD. Then we went home. Around that time it was noon-ish. We still had 4 hours to wait till we would even go down there. So he started playing his guitar as he usually does. And if I haven’t already mentioned it he’s really good. And he has a great passion for it and music. After we got pumped up with that he tried to teach me a rhythm on the Drums. And we both realized that I sucked. Oh well. Haha but I’ll try to get better. The hours pretty much dragged on like that with our excitement bubbling inside us. Then finally it was time to go. We went with his father and mother down to downtown disney. It was only us who we were going with because his friends and him were in a fight so they didn’t want to go with us. Anyways going down there we just watched some of Superbad. It was pretty funny. Then we got there and we pretty much walked around and waited for 2 hours. We then met up with one of Steven’s friends who decided to come. Her name was I believe Bridgette. She was pretty nice but quiet, and the funny thing was that she had only listened to one of Silverstein’s songs. Then it was time for the doors to open. We had to stand in a very very long line, and it took about a half hour to get in to the House of Blues. But then we got in and I was amazed. It was so cool being in there music blasting, lights shining everywhere, and hundreds of people all squished into the small venue. But then the first opening acts went on stage. We immediately ran towards the center of the floor to get into the crowd. The music was loud, but not too loud for me. lol. This band that went up was a band that I didn’t know, and they sorta sucked. But everyone was banging their heads and throwing fists into the air and moshing. So I joined the party and did it myself. It was so much fun. Through about 2 more bands after the first, and 3 hours later, Silverstein finally came on. The first song they played was the first song on their new album, “Arrivals and Departures.” The song was Sound of the Sun. I really digged this song. As soon as I heard a note I was banging my head, moshing, screaming, and singing all the lyrics to all the songs. It surprised me that I knew all the lyrics and the songs. But then I realized that I really liked the band. But after we knew it, it was over. But we all seemed to agree that it was the best concert ever ( and this being my first.lol.) and that they sounded better live. Also we all made an oath that if they came here again we would go to see them again. It was an amazing night that I will always remember.

A few days after the concert got kinda sad for me. Mainly because the Friday before the concert Steven had found another girl that he liked. Now it wasn’t necessarily jealousy that I was feeling, just pure disappointment. When I found out that they were now going out, I got paranoid and then really depressed. I didn’t want to do really much of anything. It seemed that I had wrapped my whole world around him and now it was crumbling down on me. It was a horrible feeling. I tried talking to my friends about it, but because they all hated him so much, no one listened or even really cared. So I was pretty much alone with all these dark feelings trapped inside myself. Thats probably why I didn’t write so much because I couldn’t get my feelings out and I just didn’t feel up to it. Anyways, as some weeks pasted I became a little better. He talked to me almost every single day and he said that some stuff wasn’t going well in the Relationship. So I became aware that I wasn’t really losing him. I would still keep him as a friend. And later…Well the future is the future. So I just let it be.

About 3 weeks into their relationship he broke up with her. He said it was because he couldn’t see her or talk to her. I wasn’t really happy about it. I was sad for her, because I knew how it felt to be dumped by someone and how it hurt. But then I sorta knew her and she got over it quickly. So then I didn’t feel sorry.

I was more of questioning myself. As to all of the people I knew who went out with him all got over it quickly. They acted as if it never happened. And I started wondering. Why was I so attached? Why did I like him so much? Everybody practically hated him. No body likes his personality or his attitude. Not even my mom! And shes not one to judge. So this thought is still bothering me. I still like him, but I’m ok with the fact that we are good friends. Sure I would go back out with him in a heart beat but then I’m trying to focus on our friendship. Lets just say this I’m preparing and planning for the friendship and just hoping the best. And thats all I can do right now.

So that pretty much brings me up to whats going right now. Mentally for me anyways. But right now is actually my Spring Break. Or the end of it I should say. In two days I go back to school. =//

But this Break has been a good one and I needed it. Lets see Friday we had off, but I just hung out with my friend Alex. Then Saturday, I went with Steven to universal to go see my second concert. Heart. That was a really good concert btw. Then Sunday my friend Hannah came and spent the night. Monday we went to the mall. Tuesday I went to the beach with my two guy friends, Steven and Nick ( Different Steven than ex.), and thats where I got a pretty nice sun burn. And then the rest of the week has been sorta boring. But I’ve been relaxing which is just what I need. So now I’m looking forward to going back to school on Monday. One more quarter and then school is out! Then I’ll be a 9th grader! And I’m really looking forward to summer. Its going to be a fun one.

Well that was long wasn’t it? Sorry about all the girly talk. I just needed to get all this stuff out of my head and onto paper (well the internet.lol). But thanks for reading, and if you have any advice for me thats always helpful! Thanks again, and I’ll try to write as soon as I can, but I promise it won’t be months this time

God bless,

Elise <3

^ I just thought it was a cool picture and it fit into the Spring Break theme. =]]

In the past few days… January 31, 2008

Tuesday, January 29th, 2008 -

Why hello once again!

Ok so my second blog… Mostly going to be on how these past few days have went, ( If you can’t tell by the title). Anyways, these past few days ( almost a week since I’ve done my last blog.) have had their pros and cons. I’m going to start from last Saturday to today.

Saturday, January 26th, 2008-

On Saturday my mother had woken me up at 9 ( Which I wasn’t too happy with considering I went to bed at 2 am the previous day and that I wanted to sleep in cause it was my Saturday. )  and asked me if I wanted to go to my little sister’s friend’s birthday party. I said sure because if I didn’t go I would be home all alone because my whole family was going.  So since I didn’t want to be home alone and bored I went. It was at a bowling ally about 20 minutes away from our house. We arrived a little late because traffic was bad, but we didn’t really miss anything. My sister’s friends Emily and Abby  ( Who are twins,) were having their tenth birthday. I was happy to see that their older sister Hannah was there. She has been a friend of mine ever since we’ve met them and I didn’t get to see her very much cause she went to a different school. We talked about how our lives were going like, school, friends, and other things teenagers would talk about. I was pretty much with her the whole time, which made me happy cause I didn’t get to bowl because there weren’t enough lanes, so it wasn’t too boring.  There were pool tables and I offered to teach her how to play. I was very amusing since she had never played. We didn’t really play the game fair because she couldn’t hold the stick right and hit the ball hard enough. So what we did was hit the balls with our sticks into the holes from time to time.  It was a lot of fun though, and before we knew it, it was time to say our goodbyes until next time. We gave each other our numbers so that one time we could maybe get together and go to the mall or something like that. I can’t wait till I see her again.

Sunday, January 27th, 2008-

On Sunday, I woke up excited. Cause that day I would go to my friends party. She said that she was having a party with all of her best friends and it was supposed to be a dress up sort of party. She said to wear a dress, and so I did. I chose to wear a long pink dress that almost looks like a dress fit for a princess. When she arrived to pick me up, she was laughing her head off to see me in that dress. It took me about 3 minutes to realize that she had pulled a prank on me, and that it wasn’t really a dress up party. I was upset but also amused cause I should have known that she would do this to me. I arrived at her house looking like a prom queen and when I started looking around at all the people, for one they were casually dressed and they were her family not her best friends. Thank goodness I had brought some clothes to change into. So after I changed I met all her family, then we went off on our own to Star bucks which was down the street. It took us about 15 minutes to get there, and we both ordered mocha frappicinos. We walked back with drinks in hands and talked about a whole bunch of things. Pretty much the whole rest of the day until I went home ( Which was around seven in the evening.)  was talking, taking pictures, and just plain doing what best friends do. It was a lot of fun, and that weekend turned out to be the best of many in a long time.

Monday, January 28th, 2008 -

On Monday, I had woken up at around 5 in the morning ( which was very early for me, considering I usually woke up at 7 on school days.)  And I couldn’t go back to sleep. So I went to go play my guitar. I began working on a song that I wanted to learn. I had gotten the tabs for it from the internet and so I learned how to play the begging of the song at least during that time. I heard my mom wake up at around 6, so I went out to go get breakfast and coffee. My mother and me watched the news together until about 7 and then I started getting ready for school. Around 8 I was all ready so I read my book and finished up some homework. Then I left for school and that turned out to be a boring day from then on. Although after school I went with Alex to Sterling Park Elementary ( which is right by my house.)  where we met up with some of my friends. Steven my neighbor and Megan ( a friend from school.) were there. We stayed there for an hour until the sun went down, talking and swinging on the swings. That evening there was a lot of laughter between all of us, as we all had fun together.

Tuesday, January 29th, 2008-

Tuesday I didn’t feel so well so I didn’t go to school. I had the theory that there was some sort of stomach flu going around. I had this theory because a few of my close friends got sick the day before and was throwing up. And because I felt the same way I didn’t want to go to school and spread whatever was going around. So Tuesday was pretty much dedicated to getting better. I didn’t really do anything but sleep, so it was a blah sort of day.

Wednesday, January 30th, 2008-

Okay, so Wednesday was yesterday. I was feeling better but now I was feeling bad in another way. I now was congested and my throat hurt. I brushed it off though and I went to school. I went to school and I had a test, and some class work to make up. I did the best I could to get it all done. When I got home though I started feeling worse. So I took some medicine hoping that whatever I was getting would go away before it got any worse.

Thursday ( Today), January 31st, 2008 -

Today I felt horrible when I woke up. I was so stiff and completely numb from head to toe. I couldn’t move an inch. I was scorching hot and my nose and throat were really congested. My mom didn’t even bother talking to me on how I felt. She could see that I was really sick so she let me stay home again. So I basically slept until around one in the afternoon and I still felt crappy. So I took some medicine hoping that I could go back to sleep but I couldn’t. So I just gave up on the whole sleeping idea and came on here. I decided it was time to do another one of these and here it is.

Anyways, I’ve been thinking about doing another vlog for youtube soon. Its been so long since I’ve done one…Its been about 4 months and I’m sure I’ve lost some people that have subscribed to me. But I’m hoping that this next vlog can be exciting enough to bring them back and hopefully get some more people to subscribe. One of my longer subscribers that I talk to almost all the time has tagged me to do a video so I guess now I’m going to have to do one, since hes threatening to stalk me if I don’t. lol. So yeah once I get over this cold of mine I hope that I can come up with one. And I’ll try to put it on here, although I’m not sure if I will or not yet.

Ok well other than a vlog being on my mind… My ex or Steven I should call him now. We just started talking again. We are still friends although its kinda awkward talking to him now. We got to talking about a band that hes in and how thats going. His band is called Bleeding Soul and they are going to start doing gigs in July. I’m very excited for them and I can’t wait to see them play. He writes most of the songs for the band too, and I also can’t wait to hear the songs hes written. Other than his band we’ve been talking about a concert thats coming up. He wants me to go with him and some of his friends to go see Silverstein thats performing at the house of blues on March 1st. I really want to go and I’ve been begging my mom to go. I just started listening to the band about a month ago and I’m already head over heals for it. I’m really hoping that I can go. And I hope that by the time my mom makes up her mind that it won’t be too late. But I’m also thinking about how weird its going to be seeing him again. I mean I still really like him. Even though he was a jerk to me, I would go back out with him, if he ever feels that way about me again. But oh well, I’m just glad we can still be friends.

Ok well I’m going to go for now, and hopefully I’ll do another one of these soon so it won’t be so long trying to fit a whole week into these things. lol.

Well  Thank you and God Bless

<333 Elise

The beginning of it all… January 26, 2008

Friday, January 25th 2008 12:29 am. [Its really Saturday!! ]

Ok..So my first official post, on really Saturday at like one in the morning but I’m still going to count it as Friday..LOL. . Although I should be getting to sleep I’ve just had a very stressful and depressing week and I just need to get a few things off my chest..So heres my story…

Last Friday ( 1-18-08):

Friday was a decent day, probably the best out of all of them. That day I went with my dad and my sister to go see a movie and to go out to dinner. We went to go see Alvin and the Chipmunks, which was a cute movie but the first one that I almost fell asleep in. ( But because of the annoying Chipmunks voices….lol) Anyways cute movie, you just need some Advil for the headaches. Well that lasted about 2 hours, and ended about 4. We then went to Macaroni Grill. This was my first time ever being here but it was the best dining experience I had in a long time! The service was great. You could see it right before you walked in the door. Literally! They were holding the door open for us as soon as we got out of our car. lol. Then they were so nice to us at the front desk. No wait no anything. We actually had a nice chat with them too. haha. Then we sat down and had a very nice waitress. A slender cheerful blond named Brittney. They were very quick getting our drinks, (mine being an iced tea =]. ) and then being patient as we took an extra 5 minutes to decide. ( Thanks to my dad) Then upon ordering, I swear to goodness it took them 10 minutes. Our food was fresh and hot. I had ordered Fetticine Alfredo with chicken, my sister spaghetti, and my dad some really good dish. The meal was delicious. I loved it there. Its now my favorite restaurant and I give it 5 stars!!!

Well what sorta got me down on Friday, was the fact that I said no to some movie plans I had with my boyfriend. We were going to see Clover field that evening and everything. I was really a jerk I turned him down at the last minute, but he didn’t seem too pissed cause he got to go dirt biking with his friend instead. And so I said no because I wanted to be with my family. It was rare that my dad took us out to do something or even get to see him. ( He works nights at his work, so he sleeps during the day =[ ) And my mom wasn't getting home until late and she would have to, right after work, drive me to the mall. So of course I didn't want to do that to her... She's been so nice to me lately, she didn't need that. So yeah I said no..And he SEEMED ( key word here. "Seemed") not pissed. Well I found out the hard way that he was...And that story with consequences will come here in a little bit.

Anyways, when we got home and my mom was home from work, we watched a movie called "License to Wed,". It was a really stupid movie that I already saw. But I enjoyed being with my parents. It was bonding time that I've missed out on for such a long time. So the movie was really dumb. Like the type of dumb where they are trying to be funny but its actually really stupid. I think the funniest part was when the guy got hit in the nose with a baseball and the guy was trying to heal him..idk, I guess pain amuses me...Thats really sad, but in movies it just does...lol.

After my fun little evening with my family I decided to give myself some alone time. I went into my room played some of my guitar, did some things on the computer, and read. I eventually feel asleep in the middle of a chapter in the book I was reading.. Later that night ( or early morning) I woke up at around five-ish. I couldn't understand why I was up because of my half awake self but I just walked around in my room for a few minutes.. And then I went over and checked my phone. I had gotten a new text message. One from my boyfriend. I was wondering why he was texting me so early, until I opened it and realized that it was really 11 pm on Friday night. I almost fell to my knees at as I read it over and over. ( Thank goodness I was near my bed, so I could catch myself.) It said " I don't think I'm ready for a relationship right now." I was in complete shock. I thought everything was ok, except for the disappointment I gave him with my cancellation. I was trying to think of a logical reason for all this. And the only thing I could reply was " We need to talk." After I sent that, I went on the computer trying to clear my mind. There was a gaping whole in my side now that was aching and tears running down my cheeks. I didn't understand any of this at all... I had stayed up for about 3 hours when he finally texted me back. It said " About what?" And I replied, " You know what." He replied " I just don't like you like that anymore. And it wasn't working out. Sry." There was barely any conversation from that. I was so sad although very furious. I couldn't get a grip on anything, I couldn't focus at all.

So pretty much of Saturday was a blur... I still remember talking to my friends and telling them what happened. They all said that he was a jerk and that I deserved much better. Even from their calm words I half believed them and it didn't really help anything. After about 3pm I was tired of moping around so I went over to my neighbors house. His name is Alex, and he is one of my best friends ever. I can go to him for almost everything. I hung out over there for a long time. At least until 8. Over Guitar Hero and Halo 3, we were talking about my horrible day and a whole bunch of other things. He helped a lot, and made me feel a lot better.

On Sunday my dad had invited a few of his co-workers to watch a few football games. Even though I did like them both a lot, I wasn't too enthused at having them over at my house when I was in this emotional state. I had told myself the day before that I was over this whole thing. But I had to come back to reality and I really wasn't. I was still if not more depressed than I was Saturday. So what seemed very rude of me, but was what I needed, I kept to myself in my room. I only really came out for dinner and occasional drinks. Although towards the end of the evening I opened up and bit and came out to talk and watch the rest of the game. To my surprise I actually enjoyed myself. Then after the game was over one of my dads friends had to leave because he had to take care of some business early the next morning. After I said goodbye to him, Alex comes outside and gets me to go inside to hang out for a little while..At this time it was about 10 o'clock. My parents really had no problem with it because they were hanging out with my dads other friend, and Alex's mom was over there too. So we just went inside and chilled till like 3 in the morning.(Haha) We were like talking, playing video games, and babysitting his little sister named Carley. I was about to sleep over, when my mom called me to come home =[. Oh well. I had the best time that night though.

On Monday we didn't have school because it was Martin Luther Kings day, so we had the day off. That day was mostly boring, I had nothing to do, so I just read the whole day and caught up with some school things. On Tuesday I think the true depression started to get the best of me. I wasn't myself at all. Like whenever my friends would come up to me and talk, I couldn't answer them back cause I was so lost in thought. So a lot of them just started ignoring me.. Then on Wednesday still in that lost daze, was pretty much the same thing as Tuesday. I was in a daze replaying my "ex's" words over and over in my head. I couldn't get him out of my head. And by 2nd period ( Which was P.E....ugh!) I had a huge headache. The rest of the day I couldn't focus, read, write, speak, think, anything... I was like a zombie!! lol. So when I got home I took some Tylenol and took a 5 hour nap..The longest I have slept in a long time. ( For a nap anyways.)

Thursday was a little better, I started talking to my friends again and everything sorta went back to normal. I was glad at that, and that I could talk to my friends cause I really needed a distraction from my own mind. Talking to my friends not only helped but gradually pulled me out of my little phase. I was now more alert, and more happy. I didn't like feeling the way I had before. All depressed, angry, and most of all isolated. I felt like an invisible person walking through the halls.

Today, which is Friday has been my best day of the week so far. School had been long as usual, but it was a very relaxing day. Since we'd just had exams the previous week, no teacher dared giving us too much homework or tests this week. For that I was great full. After school, I hung out with Alex again ( which seemed to be a daily ritual by now.) and we decided that we would go to the Friday night skate night at Semoran Skate way. Our nearest skating rink. We left at around 7, getting there at 7:30 just in time for it to start. At first I was alone cause Alex had went off with his friends. But then, after a few minutes he introduced me to them, and we hung out for most of the time. I also saw a few friends of my own. Some that I haven't seen in a few years. It was very nice to catch up with them and see how they were doing. I spent most of my time falling on my butt and then talking to my friend named Devenn. He knew my ex, and he was telling me on how much of a jerk he was. That really started getting me thinking... He said that in his past relationships that he was sorta abusive in a way whenever something went wrong. And I was glad that it didn't get that far during the 1 month that we were dating. Now I'm totally over it and him. I realize now what all my friends were telling me was true. That he was a jerk and that I deserved so much better. I now believed them.

Through this rough week, all in all, I have learned a lot. I have learned about myself and who all my true friends are. I've learned that nothing and nobody is always perfect. I've come in contact with some of my deepest emotions, and it has really made me realize that life will go on with time. Anyways, that has been my week, and I'm sorry that it was such a depressing one for you guys to hear. But it has already helped me a lot by doing this. So thank you all for listening.. I will write again soon, and hopefully on something a little more happy =]

Thank you and God Bless,

Elise

A Little Introduction.. January 20, 2008

Well Hi everybody!

As some of you may know me, (or some may not) I’m Elise. I’m 14 years young and blow the candles out on September 2nd. Anyways I have learned from a very important friend of mine that you can express yourself greatly and very accurately through your words. He has inspired me so much since I have met him, and I’m so glad that I did. He told me that he was starting one of these, and that its a great way to get your feelings out in front of other people that can help or that understand. He is a vlogger for youtube ( as am I, and thats how I met him) and watching his videos and hearing his words, he has truly inspired me beyond words….He is such a natural speaker, his words flow and it seems that he doesn’t even have to think of what hes saying. And this is where I got truly inspired, I started making more vlogs, talking about my feelings easier, and now he has helped me get to this point. Where I get to share my life with all of you guys, and that is the best gift I can ever ask for. Well I’m not going to talk about him forever, cause I don’t want him to get embarrased.. (Sorry, lol) But he is the one that started all of this…So thank him =]

Well generally I love to write. Its just something that I enjoy doing and something that I’m relatively good at. I write things from poems, to short stories, to now blogs. I love being creative in my writing, and I love being myself through my own words. It seems to be easier for me than talking. (Thats probably why I prefer IMing rather than talking on the phone. lol.) Since I like to write so much, I will most likely be on here everyday typing up something else…lol.

Another thing that I love doing is reading. It is a great gift and ability. I like reading because it gives me my imagination. Reading stories, its like playing a movie in my head. And the creativity (< I love being creative if you haven’t noticed by now.) you can use. To make the scenes, the characters look like anything you want. (still sticking to the story of course.) And its just such a great freedom of mind. Even though I love doing it I don’t really have enough time to. I have school, and a lot of other things going on that its only at night when I get to read anymore = [. But I love reading other peoples work as well, such as blogs, stories, and poems..So don’t be afraid to share I will give my full truth-filled opinion.

A couple other things that my friends and family say that I am good at is….Giving advice and giving my opinions. Although I’m not a very good speaker, talking to people about their problems and trying to help them is just something that I love and enjoy doing. My friends all say that I give very good advice and that when I do I usually help the situation. Giving my opinion is very important to me though. I want other people to listen to mine as well as I do theirs and it just gives me an insight to them. It helps me realize who the person really is and it helps me get closer with them. I believe that everybody should have someone to talk to…Whether its sharing their own opinions, listening to others, or giving or getting advice.

One thing that I am very passionate about, other than writing is music. Music is practically my life. Every minute of every day I’m listening to it. I have liked and listened to Music ever since I was a little kid and I have grown fonder and fonder of it throughout my years. Listening is a good quality of mine, and music just gives my ears the greatest sensation. I like so many bands, and singers of so many different genres. Except I don’t listen to rap or R&B.. I listen to mostly Rock though. Any form of it. Any style. But like I said I like many other genres as well. I have a guitar and I’m learning how to play right now. I can’t wait til I get good because I can start writing my own music. Its not really my dream to be a musician or a rock star or anything like that. I just want to make music. The one thing I’m really passionate about. And then combining that with writing, it is like a dream. Just to be able to make my OWN music. Ok I guess you get the picture by now, but I don’t want you guys to think that I’m a rock star wanna-be.

I am currently in 8th grade at my middle school here in Florida. So far it has been a good year. I’ve been getting good grades, meeting a lot more friends, and best of all learning a lot about myself. Some say that being a teenager sucks, we are stuck right there in the middle between childhood and adulthood. But I think its probably the best time. Because right now we have so many abilities and possibilities to find ourselves. We can find who we want to become, where we are going, and where we were before. We can plan for the future and try to make the best of ourselves. There are some down sides to being a teenager though..With all the pressures of drugs, alcohol, and sex, its hard for some of us to really find ourselves because of bad influences. Some don’t have to worry about that stuff, but some are so pressured by friends and peers to gain acceptance and sometimes that leads to the bad influences. Others are pressured by their parents and teachers to get the best grades in their class, or to achieve their high standards. With all this stuff plus puberty, its pretty rough in here, but it is also the best learning experience that anyone can have. ( I think)

Ok, well I’m going to let you guys go now. There is a lot more to learn about me, and a lot more to read..So keep coming back, and I’ll try to have something new at least every week (if I’m not to busy.)

Thanks so much!!!

Love ya,

Elise <38784386720o383285827852380862928057

Hello world! January 20, 2008

Hello everybody,

I’m Elise and I’m a new blogger here on wordpress. I already started writing my first blog and it tells more about me in deeper detail. It is called “A Little Introduction,” if any of you are interested. I love to write. Its something that I’m really passionate about. I also like to read, talk and meet new people, and I’m very interested in music. Another thing that I’m over and beyond passionate and crazy about. But anyways read my first blog and it will introduce these passions of mine in more detail. There will be a lot more to come, so keep coming back cause there will be a lot more to read!

Thanks a whole bunch!!

Love,

Elise